This exists because I can not say this to anyone I know. There is nobody I can be honest with. So you, unsuspecting Internet stranger, get to gloss over this and pass it off as some angsty teenager's ramblings. Except this would be so much easier to deal with if I was a teenager.

I have a therapist I can't talk to. No amount of training can allow a person to comprehend experiences of others and the impacts those experiences make on lives. I want to talk to you, but I can't. I have to guard myself against people seeing ME.